Whole30 Day 15

The last week has been pretty busy around the Hanson household, and although things have seemed quite hard at times, we are trying to maintain our trust that God has this whole mess of life figured out. Sometimes I wish He would at least give me a tiny hint of what He has in store because those who know me understand I am an obsessive planner and NEED to know what is happening next. We had to make some adjustments with Kaylee this week, so she is going back to daycare full time again. We know in our hearts that this is the right decision for everyone but it is still so very hard. I miss getting an extra hour and a half with her in the mornings to make sure she is comfortable before I leave for work. I miss getting pictures throughout the day that show me what she is doing. I miss spending time with my friend in the mornings at her house when I drop Kaylee off. There’s lots I miss, but I am trusting God has this figured out because mommy feels like she has no clue sometimes.




Health update: Many of you know that I have been struggling with chronic fatigue for months now. It’s intense, like fall asleep sitting up on the couch after 2 minutes intense, and it comes in really hard waves. After finding a new doctor that is willing to spend significant time looking through my file and comparing the lab results with my symptoms, we determined that my daily dose of T4 hormone was significantly lower than it needed to be. So, we have upped the medication and will re-test in 6 weeks. I’m not sure when I will begin to notice a difference but I am hoping soon. I am also wondering if it will help the weight loss continue. Right now things are stuck, to the point of bitter frustration, but because of the fatigue I have nothing left in me to give. I push myself as hard as I possibly can during our WODs because I know my energy for the day will only last me that 1 precious hour in the morning, so I give it all I have. I crash very quickly after I get home from CFX and just try to maintain throughout the day if I can. I have noticed that protein helps me, so I try to eat quite a bit of that throughout the day. I’m not taking any additional caffeine during the day, so the headaches from that have stopped finally. But sometimes I wish I could just go buy a huge coffee drink to wake me up.



Paleo challenge update: I’m now 15 days into my Whole30 and being strict STRICT Paleo. I’ve lost my cravings for junk food, but still really miss my Paleo treats. Some days are easier than others and the other day I was about to cave when Jon reminded me that I told everyone here that they shouldn’t give up. I’ve not listened to my own advice and have been weighing myself every few days (I suggest you do NOT do this but I am stubborn) and the results are discouraging because they are either staying exactly the same as 15 days ago or they are going up. UP??? This is why the other day I wanted to say screw it, I’m done, and I’m going to Subway (yes, that is a cheat for me and I LOVE it). But after talking to Jon I remembered why I am really doing this. Even if after the challenge the weight on the scale is the same or higher, I pray pray pray that the % of body fat has changed. It has to, right??? I am hoping that the reason the weight numbers are not changing is because it is turning into muscle. I have not cheated, not once, so there’s no reason for it to not be…..but as a woman it’s hard to see the scale numbers not change. I have noticed my strength numbers at CFX improving, so I know I am getting stronger. For example, today I was able to clean 105lbs [yay!!] and when we did Kettlebell floor presses the 35lbs were very easy, when they used to be very hard. Things are moving in the right direction, I just need to keep my head clear.



Sit-up challenge update: I’m so happy to say that I finished the 2,376 weighted situp challenge in 10 days!! The girls at CFX really dived in on this one and made it so much fun to do together, thank y’all so much for participating!! I’ve gained a whole sense of appreciation for the GHD because after the first 500 situps I learned the hard way that carpet situps were not going to work.



Other tidbits: Friday is our 5 year wedding anniversary and I am getting very excited about it! We chose some [unknowingly] hard paths throughout our 10+ year relationship but I am so thankful to have my best friend as my husband. He amazes me every day in how he has become such a wonderful father to Kaylee and I’m glad he is someone I can tell everything to. I have needed so much support from him since beginning this long journey and I can’t even express to him how much his support has meant. Even now, things get tough, but he is there for me to cry to and lean on when needed. I’m also so very proud of him for starting his own CrossFit journey to better health/fitness and he is looking GOOD if I do say so myself !



Your homework: There have been lots of days the past few weeks when I am reminded how hard it is to keep going when things get tough. Sometimes you have to give yourself tough love, and although it sucks, it’s necessary. I saw this picture below and it is exactly what I needed to hear. I know it might be harsh, and I don’t mean it to be (well, I kinda do but that is because I BELIEVE in you!) but take a minute to think about what this means for you. You will know when you’re ready to pursue that new journey whether it be related to weight loss/finances/marriage/relationships/kids/etc. But be real with yourself and don’t let anyone, ANYONE, make you change your mind about taking charge of your own life. Sometimes you feel alone and that is okay, because you are the only one who can do this.